[surrey]
the set up and the letter after 'y'
well, the weekend proved to be a busy one, probably one of the busiest social calendars of the year. i made however only 5 out of 9 events, which was pretty good i think. on friday night, i stopped by to wish carl a happy birthday, for his badluck party. usually at carl and cathy's parties is the only time that i get to see byron, probably the only guy i could probably say was a ex (in real normal people's dating terms, he would probably be referred to as someone who he/she dated for a short while). anyways, the funny thing is that as lou and i were putting our shoes on to go to the next party, and i was telling cathy to say hi to him for me (and how fabulous i looked), he literally almost knocked me over as he opened the door to enter. it's weird -- i always seem to talk 'bad' about what happened between byron and me, and as i was trying to point out to lou the reason why things didn't work out between us -- i couldn't really articulate it in words. the only thing that i could think of is that it probably had to do more with me than anything that happened.

...then after a short stay at jason's for tye's pre-birthday gathering (they went to see oakenfold at the commodore), i went with lou to ryan #1's party (i.e. not lou's boyfriend). anyways, ryan had invited one of this gay friends for a potential set up. i've realized even though i always ask my friends to assist me with 'the setup', i'm no good at it. even though lou overheard that he might potentially be interested, ryan only finally introduced me to him as he was leaving. ryan apologized for the 'build up'. thinking about it some more, it was probably me who was (and is) more guilty of that.